I've had a principle make me apologize to my tormentors because they made it seem that I started it or something. I've had bullies that I befriended only to return to the "group" afterwards and backstab me. I've had bullies spin it their way while throwing one of their own under the bus. I've had teachers that either stood by or made things worse or helped the bullies. This is mainly because she knew no one else was doing anything to help her, even the teacher (who was WELL aware of it all) allowed it to happen. And all the anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness she has bottled up inside her through it all.she just snapped as anyone would have done in her situation. Her expression, wanting to be friends and wanting to be understood and heard, and Ishida's words about her being "weak" and a "coward" for not using her voice (when she had been all along), she wanted to prove something to him. Even the fight between her and Ishida struck a chord in me. The way she silently takes it all, all the "I'm sorrys", how she calmly faces everyday and endured it all. It cannot remain a dirty little secret or a skeleton in the closet, they must come out-yes, even the skeletons, because we owe it to the victims. Also this shouldn't be dismissed but should be exposed and be aware that it happens. And there's always goodness in people-no matter what they suffered through. Treat others others the way you want to be treated. The message that Yoshitoki-sensei has strive to present to us is an important one. And yes there are some things that were done to me that won't ever go away or be forgivable, but I want to look forward on life and not be weighted down by such things, I think that's how Nishimiya sees it. But if you think of it, she's just that nice-I mean, I did the same myself. Sure it may seem unrealistic for the girl to have gone as far as to forgive him and be that good of a person. Sure it wasn't much but I appreciated and was even shocked they reached out to me the way they did. It was through forgiveness I could free myself in a way. Stupid I know, but there was a part of me that knew if I didn't I would let the hatred consume me or that I'd never escape it. I know this because, while it may seem like something that can't be easily forgive and just a way for the bully to escape the guilt just as the pain will always remain with the victim for life, I've had bullies come back to me and apologize and stuff. It takes a lot of guts to show yourself to the bullied victim. While sure Ishida deserves it from bullying Nishimiya, I have to applaud his actions to redeem himself. Now the rest is spoilers so unless you've read it, don't click it please. And the truth was they got tired of making allowances for me and resorted to this. Although not all in a bad way, but the fact of how hard we both worked at trying to "fit" in the class and were pushed down or away because people didn't understand and thought I was a hassle because of my impairment. And reading this just brought it all back to me. I know this because as a hearing impaired student like Nishimiya, I dealt with that throughout my grade school years. Yes its sad and it makes you angry that we humans are capable of such mistreatment towards others, but it DOES happen. Particularly because it deals with a subject I find is swept under the rug all too often. This.this is what should be published and serialized. OHMYGOD, apparently this is getting serialized! YESH.
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